Tell her how you feel, But not in a way that’s going to upset her. try suggesting that she spends a weekend with her mates and have a bit of “Her” time, She’ll appreciate you for it, And that way you get more space, Yet still be together like you want to be :) Hope everything works out
Lastnight whilst listening to more “chilled” music than my normal selection of ear-candy, i had an itch, on my arm…totally innocent.
In that one moment my whole outlook on life changed, i started doing what i never thought id do again and promised alot of people i wouldnt, I wasnt depressed at this particular moment yet there i was, scratt my skin with my nails long after the itchy feeling had gone, i had no emotions while doing it, it was almost like the flesh i was scratching more deeply now wasnt my own flesh.
sitting here now i wondered why i did it again…i only cut myself twice lastnight…but it’s not the fact that they were only mere scratches compared to my history of self harm…it was the fact that i still did it.
After doing it i broke down…all the emotions that i was meant to feel before doing it came after…and i was a mess rocking back and forth on the bed, i called NHS hotline and they eventually put me through to a mental health crisis team.
I dont understand how one moment im in bed reading then decide why not listen to some music like i always do…next thing i know im in a trance cutting my flesh and then i can hahrough my tears…nothing had triggered this…which made me feel even more pathetic.